LOST: 30-something Woman

*cough*

My weekend and Snakey's visit were thwarted by my cold. Bah! I was pretty much useless b/c I was coughing, sneezing, congested and severely medicated, which eliminated me drinking and tasting anything. I went along with him to, what I hear was an amazing dinner, b/c I felt bad that he had come all this way only to have me wanting to take naps. I couldn't taste a damn thing. I'd wait for his reaction to the food and then I'd give a commentary on the texture or tell him I knew it was salty or sweet.

Exciting.

It was also bitterly cold this weekend. Double boo.

We did go see "Frost/Nixon" which we both thought was excellent. I recommend. Of course, we watched the Oscars - and didn't exactly get on board with their new approach to handing out awards. Kinda strange. Kind of like being toasted.....or not. PL Girl came over and between Snakey and her commentary, we were in stitches. Like PL's comment about Angelina's MASSIVE emerald jewelry.

"What is that kryptonite?"

One of my friends emailed me last night to tell me a story about how her married and 5 month pregnant friend (who I know by association) told her over the weekend that she really needs to consider paying someone to help her find a mate b/c otherwise she will die alone.

WTF.

Another one bites the dust, meaning those who got married and forgot what it's really like to be single. They are out there. Trust me. I know you have one of these in your clusters of friends. We all do. Don't misunderstand me, I'm not hatin' or preaching some defensive attitude...but really....why do those who were only not that long ago, your comrade in singledom and searching for love, so quick to forget and then feel the need to dispense advise and commentary on a life that isn't theirs? I think single women in their 30's or 40's don't want you to give ideas about what to do to be "un-single", they just want you to be supportive of how they live their life, just as they were as supportive to them when they were searching.

We don't need people pointing out what our greatest fears our. We can do that ourselves. On our own time. In the comfort of our own moments.

I need to tell this friend to retort back, "Just b/c you bought your husband and wrestled him to the ground to marry you? No thanks. That's just not how I roll."

(oh...I know that this person lasso'd her husband and strung him up like a wild boar, btw)

post V-day wrap up

Another V day come and gone. I am coming down with a cold or something. I feel like crap. I slept so much this weekend, that I feel like I wasted 1/2 of it! All that sleep and I still don't feel any better. The achy and exhaustion is now manifesting into a scratchy throat, coughing and nausea. Not fun. I can't get sick! Snakey is coming into town on Thursday and that means lots of nights out!

Gah!

I spent V Day at dinner w/my friend gay boyfriend JC Boy. We went to a local pub and thought we could just grab a burger, but alas, we were pushed to do the Valentine's Day "prix fixe" which came with a long-stemmed red rose for the lady. Which I got. I tried to give it to him, but JC Boy wouldn't take it!  LOL!! The food was not good and we laughed as we sat surrouned by couples.

Earlier in the day, I decided to take myself shopping. I should've taken a picture. When I went by the Godiva store, there was a line out the door with ropes to keep the MEN organized so they could buy their chocolate. YES! I took careful note that ALL of the patrons were men. I laughed! I mean come on! It was almost too cliche, a line of men waiting to buy the ever-present, uncreative Godiva chocolate for their Valentines. I mean, really....put some effort into it! Unless your gf or wife, thinks that it's funny to get Godiva chocolate! Are these the same guys who give teddy bears?

On Sunday, I went to see "He's Just Not That Into You". I thought it was ok. Not great. Not bad and about 20 mins too long. It's not a total chick flick. The characters are all some version of us at some point whether you are a male or female. 

CRUSH UPDATE:

After some back and forth's last week over email about the project, I suggested that maybe he would like to have lunch so we could just meet face to face and discuss. He agreed. And then he cancelled on me 2 days in a row with apologies and rescheduling.......only we never had lunch! 2 days in a row I made sure I had on cute outfits! It's exhausting!

Needless to say - we didn't have lunch. Last night, I was off yesterday from work, but decided to check my email to make sure I knew what was going on today in the office to be prepared. There was an email sent by Crush Monday morning asking me to lunch.

I responded that I was sorry I missed his email, but if he was free today (tuesday) we could try again. Long story short, a mtg appeared today that neither of us were expecting and we quickly met for lunch today in the cafeteria to pull together a deck for this mtg. He was complimentary about my outfit (as he consistently does). Our last face to face, he was all business no fun or lighthearted chatter. Today, he was back to friendly, flirting and WINKING. By end of mtg - he was teasing me and I am finally confident that he is indeed flirting with me and pretty sure he likes me.

YES -- insert 15 yr old giggle here.

Oh! And I am also 98% certain that he doesn't have a gf based on a conversation we had today. WOO!

Do I want to ask him out. Yes. However, that is easily done in my head. Not in actuality. I think there is innocent progress being made. Me likes him.

:-)

Progress

Meet & Greet last night = Fail.

More lessons to be learned....for me.

1) If the person's picture is too small and you can't really see what they look like. That is a clue that they don't look anything like what they actually look like nor do they resemble what you THOUGHT they look like when you squinted at their photo!

2) Asking you to meet on a street corner instead of some place specific. Not good and awkward b/c then he stood next to you for about 5 mins staring at you making you uncomfortable and you didn't realize it was him b/c of...see #1

3) He looked like a mix of Steve Buscemi (the actor - younger and with blond hair) fused with Bill Gates

4) He talked the ENTIRE time NON-STOP about the housing marking, his apartment, his job and the cars he USED to have and that's it. He paused only once 3 minutes before I called the meet over to ask what I did for work. What is with guys who just talk about themselves or just talk as if I am not sitting there, do they think they have a captive audience???

I excused myself to the restroom at almost the 1 hour mark and when I saw our waitress asked her to bring our check b/c I didn't want to sit there with him and then have to flag down our waitress b/c I thought that would've been even more obvious that I wanted to leave. Thanked him for meeting and said good night. Shook his hand. Buh-bye.

Crush update:

We emailed a few times yesterday b/c I had to ask a few project questions and he finally loosened up a bit and made a joke in an email. I finally then asked if he wanted to meet to discuss instead of the back and forth emails and then suggested lunch for today. This morning he emailed to say that today was hectic and if we could have lunch tomorrow. Damn. Now I have to find another cute outfit to wear tomorrow. Although, Col & Sac respectively pointed out - don't I dress greateveryday? I do. But, when there is a special reason or opportunity, I like to bump it up a bit.  Heh. :-)

My daydream for tomorrow is us having lunch outside of the office, not in the cafeteria, where we talk about work for like 5 mins and transition to just talking and at the end he makes an move to say, "do you want to grab a drink this weekend?" versus me trying to find another way to run into him or say I will be in his neighborhood and we should get a beer. (Backtrack - last week when we shared where we live, it turns out he lives in the nabe that I frequent and hang in the most and he said, "you should let me know! we'll get beers!")

*sigh*

It's 60 degrees outside today. It's a trick b/c come Saturday, it's supposed to snow a little. Damn mother nature is being a tease.

Pull it together

I have a meet & greet tonight. Yes. I'm not "back online" in full force. But, I have a profile that is just up that goes dormant here and there. Meaning, I didn't pay to re-up my membership. It's one of the sites, that you can still get a few emails in for free.

This guy and I have been in mild communication for about 2 weeks. The interesting part is that I don't know much about him beyond his profile, which isn't much. He called me on Sunday evening and I didn't get the vmail until Monday morning. Which is strange b/c I was home all night Sunday -- and even wondered at one point - that my phone was strangely silent. Not bc I'm getting calls all of the time, mind you. I had texted a PL girl and didn't hear back from her which was strange. My phone sort of sucks. I've had issues like this before, but that's a whole other story.

Since I didn't get his call until Monday - I emailed him yesterday and apologized. I called him last night, too and left a vmail. He texted me at 11pm and said he was still up for meeting. Now, we've been texting back and forth trying to come up with a plan this morning. My gut is that all this texting upfront isn't great. But, what do I know?

My crush is a bit more under control so far this week. I found out that he's actually a bit younger than me. He's probably around 30 or 31. I winced a tad b/c all I think about is how he's the same age as my youngest brother and as maternal as I am....it makes me feel cradle robby. But, it's not like he's asked me out - or something's happened! I can have crushes on whoever I want, right???? *insert you readers out there saying, RIGHT! * I'm searching for some reader participation!  Col, pointed out to me that really age shouldn't matter too much -- once you hit 30. She says with both parties in the 30 range. All is game.

I saw him yesterday for about 10 mins and it was all business. He wasn't winking at me (did I write about this last week? he was throwing me off my game b/c he was winking and flirting with me). I won't see him again this week (no mtgs planned) unless I find a reason....which makes me feel doofy. Then again...this morning I had a burst of self-confidence and thought I'd just see what he was up to if he wanted to grab lunch.

But, alas...that moment waned...and now I'm back to my somewhat shy-internal crushing self with my thoughts.

I need to pull it together!! My friends tell me that I should just "ask him out". I understand the message, but something is holding me back. Ah...yes...I know what it is....fear of rejection. Franklin said to me, "what? you think he's going to tell his friends, dude - this chick Lost asked me out. Can you believe that? What was she thinking?"

And I meekly responded to him...."yes".

*sigh*

a quickie

Ok...get your mind of out of the gutter....not that kind of quickie. :-)

This week has been surprizingly busy at work. Not things to do, per se, but lots of meetings.

I just had to share that I think I'm losing my mind. Aside from, yes, being subjected to the sexual habits of fellow airline passengers (see previous post). It really DID happen. I'm all for friskiness, but really....do it where people can't see you, ok?

Oh, where was I? Losing my mind. So, I got wind of this video a few weeks ago. I favorited it. I don't know why but it amuses me so. While in Mexico, part of this video was in a commerical in spanish and I jumped up and said, "OHHH!" and LSteez was like, "huh?". I explained and she fell silent and gave me that, 'I worry about you smile'. It is german and it's just this dancing gummi bear. Yes. GUMMI BEAR. He's saying, "Yes, I'm a gummi bear...yes, a gummi bear". Apparently, if you go to YouTube there is an english version and then the long version. I'm only giving you the 30 second version b/c I think most people can't tolerate it. I am MESMORIZED by it! When I sent the "long" 2 minute version to my friends, they just responded with that they were scared for me. You be the judge.

 GUMMI BEAR SONG (CLICK THIS FOR LINK) 

There IS something wrong with me isn't there? My favorite part is where he shakes his bootie!!!! MMwwwhahahahaha! 

Ok....in other news. I have a new crush. At work. And it's INTENSE. My heart was racing yesterday while he sat next to me!!! You will recall my last work crush was over a year ago with Mr 24. This guy, like Mr 24, is also a consultant that I recently met and was asked to work on a project with. Maybe I have a thing for consultants???!?? Anyway....it took my by surprise this whole crushing thing. When I met him a few weeks ago, I thought, "Hmm...he's kind of nerdy preppy cute". However, this week it just came ROARING at me and unless it's my imagination, I think that he's also adding fuel to the fire by flirting with me!!

I'm all googly. It's weird. I feel weird. Yet strangely excited. It might be nothing but a distraction. I asked Sac if it was quite possibly my imagination. However, staying tuned to my new year's resolution to follow my gut. Gut says that it's feeling like he's flirting with me.

Hmmm........interesting.

Stay tuned.

Mexico

I'm back!

All I have to say is I *heart* sun, beach and 70+ temperatures! Thanks to everyone who had some suggestions. We didnt make it to the cenotes, but did go down to Tulum and then as west over to Chichen Itza to see the ruins which were pretty durned cool! I am extremely lucky to be able to travel these days and let me tell you....I am LOVING IT. When am I leaving next? Just kidding....ok, maybe not.

More and some pics soon. I just got in last night -- catching up at work (boo!) and guess what? It's snowing outside!

I have to tell someone b/c I felt like I was the only one to witness it and it was just so awkward. I'm pretty sure on my flight home last night - which was pretty empty. The couple sitting in front of me were engaging in some "mile high club" activity. Seriously....why am I always the one who has to be privy to this crap?