No *sigh*

"Just when I thought I was out.....they pull me back in." - Michael Corleone, The Godfather.

That's often how I feel about online dating. And like a drug, I always go back for a little hit. Being that it's spring, I'm full of clairty and positivity.....I was feeling froggy one day and decided to post my profile back up. Col recently did so, as well. In fact, I had been IM'ing with her last week and said how I had been entertaining it and I inserted a *sigh* after I told her so. She wrote back, "if you do it, don't sigh about it".

You know when someone says something so simple, yet it makes a big impact? 

This was one of them.

I realized that I was already setting up the vibe of defeat and self-depreciation, just by adding a deep sigh!I took some time to think about it. This is a zen moment here ....and I reached down deep and thought about it. I'm not unrealistic. I asked myself the reasons why I felt this itch or why I was even drawn into going back online. Once I answered that and reached that place of comfort. I put my profile back up. AND. I. DIDN'T. SIGH. I'm just opening the door to the universe, as they say....more zen phraseology.

I'm out there.....so far so good. A very nice email from a gentleman who acknowledged that he was not in my articulated age range (I liked that he paid attention), but that he just had to say hello. He's 50. After looking at his profile, I decided that while he seemed like a sincere man, 50 was just a bit too old for me. Instead of just disappearing into the black cyberspace hole. I wrote him back and thanked him, but said that I didn't think we would be a match and wished him the best of luck. I'm certain that for some 50 is not too old at my age, but for me it is. I'm loosening up the preferred criteria, but 50 is a bit too much for me. 

So, there you have it.....with spring. I'm springing forward and opening up the door for some fresh air.

I told Tsunami Girl that I had been thinking about it and she responded with, "Secretly I want you to get back online, so I can hear the stories. Sometimes I miss it". Not exactly, the reason I wanted to get back online to share crazy stories with people, but....um.....ok.

Comments

[Anutt]

So many of my close (and married) friends encouraged me to get back online when I had taken many breaks from it just for the purpose of them hearing stories about all my first dates. I often thought we single gals should write a book of compilations of first dates. Who wouldn't read that!? I am so with you...but good for you for getting out there. It's not always easy, but if nothing else the stories will be fun later! He's out there!!! Be patient.

[LV]

Good for you! While we know that online dating has its frustrations, I've met some truly great guys on it in the past. No matter that it didn't work out as a LTR -- I still value the time I spent with them.